Synopsis: A film that starts with a kiss and ends with another one. After a car crash George find out that his lover is dead and kisses him as a sign of goodbye or maybe as a sign of hope to meet him again. Love is something we never want to loose and when lost, we try to bring it back somehow. George finds himself in a deepening sorrow. His sorrow seems to get beyond him as we go on watching the movie. Will George manage to move on and start a new chapter in his life? Will he manage to heal from his devastating loss?
Friday, November 30, 1962. George struggles to deal with the grief of losing his partner. He dreams that he finds the body of his longtime lover, Jim, at the scene of the car accident that took Jim’s life eight months earlier. He bends down to kiss Jim’s frozen lips. After waking up, George records his thoughts about the pain and depression that he has endured since Jim’s death and his suicidal thoughts.
George receives a phone call from his best friend, Charley, who seems to be carefree despite the fact that she is miserable, too. George appears perfect both through his very well groomed appearance and good manners and through his neat environment. George recalls details about his partner and their long relationship, which deepens his melancholia and despair. On his school campus George develops contacts with a student, Kenny Potter, who seems to be interested in George and ignores the conservative conventionality of student-professor relationships. Apart from this, George also mingles with a Spanish male prostitute, named Carlos. It is true that George has some social contacts with these people, but he doesn’t really manage to deepen any kind of a relationship with anybody. Moreover, George gets upset when Charley fails to understand George’s sorrow and his impossibility to start something new.
When at a bar, Georges discovers that Kenny has followed him. George and Kenny have drinks, go skinny dipping, and then return to George’s house and continue drinking. George passes out and wakes up in bed with Kenny asleep in another room. While glaring at Kenny, George notices that while sleeping Kenny holds George’s gun, to prevent George from committing suicide. George takes the gun away, burns his suicide notes and says in a recording that he has rediscovered the ability “to feel, rather than think”. As he accepts his sorrow, George suddenly suffers a heart attack and starts fainting, while envisioning his lover, Jim, reappearing and kissing his freezing lips.
George’s despondency and melancholia are expressed through a stylized visual narrative. This perfectness is an attempt to surmount the sorrow: he “fakes it until he makes it”. However, his attachment to his lover continues to cause a profound emotional suffering. His feelings of loneliness and remoteness are mirrored in him appearing alone and melancholic in the frame. George’s mood and perceptions are visualized through black/white and colorful cinematography. George generally sees the world through lifeless colors, except from some intimate and sensual details that are visualized colorfully according to George’s inner shifts.